I'm sure everyone can relate to what I refer to as the "love 15". It's similar to the "freshman 15". When you're with someone and you have dinner dates, staying in and eating junk food, ice cream/fro-yo dates, basically sitting on your ass all in love and not doing any of the exercise shit you used to. You're on cloud 9 and all you want to do is 'netflix and chill' with your boo. That's where I landed. Except I'm married and looking at myself like "how in the world did I get here and let myself go like this". Okay. I'm obviously exaggerating and not the total disaster I'm making myself seem, but if i was 15 lbs lighter or more in shape I think I would have more energy and more self confidence. I've struggled with body issues for as long as I can remember, so I'm actually surprised I even let myself get to this point. I used to be extremely compulsive over every calorie I consumed and would work out for hours every night. I'm so happy to have a husband who loves me no matter what I look like (good or bad), buuttt I would like to be hott again and feel better about myself again. I think it'll be cool to document my progress/process and be held accountable without going overboard like I used to, so I'm going to be posting my progress, workouts, and struggles for the days where i would rather choke myself out than go to the gym. It's a daily struggle to feel confident in every day situations and when i'm out and about going places. I know this is going to be hard and there are days where I'm going to fall back but If i don't hold myself accountable and make myself do it, who will? The image above is exactly what I'm thinking. I'm going to commit to this process and I'm going to make myself so proud.